Oceans

I feel as though I could cry enough tears to fill every ocean, lake, and swimming pool on Earth. In the days since my first post on here, the months have been reduced to weeks.

I am sitting at the end of couch watching my beautiful mommy sleep. She gets to spend her last couple of weeks at the home she worked so hard to give us.

My mom told me she is so sorry that she is sick. It's okay, mom! She feels bad that she won't make it to see Lindsay walk across the stage and get her college diploma.

I'm scared to know what life will be like without her. I want her to stay more than anything. I wish I could take back every disrespectful thing I have ever said about her or to her. I'm so thankful that she has forgiven me and that she loves me anyway.

The pain I feel right now is deeper than words can describe. It's deep now and I still get to hug her. I cannot begin to imagine the pain that I will feel when I spend my first day apart from her.

I have been frantically filling up notes on my iPhone with pieces of advice or funny statements that she had made in the last few days. So I will leave you with this..."remember, it is not necessary to put bows on Christmas presents."

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