trying to be brave and stuff

Momma, A YEAR AND A HALF. How is it that time has passed to a year and a half since I've seen you? Time just keeps on moving and it has no mercy for grievances. I think sometimes that's good but sometimes I just want you here while time freezes.  Well this last month wasn't quite as eventful as the previous month. It is now Fall. I really do like Fall in the present moment. What I do not like about Fall is that it always turns to Winter. I feel like I could be happy with just  summer and fall on repeat.  I've been running a lot. About 4 days a week. Last "season", I trained at 5 days a week so I am hoping to finish out training strong by adding another day of running. The weather has been awesome for my runs! Windy at times but I've only have to go to the gym once or twice due to rain. It is so nice not to have to fight off the ice of Winter training. My run on Sunday was a struggle at best but today's run was fierce! Completely the opposite experience...

Hello World, Today was supposed to be my 8 mile run and up until this point (including my training last winter), I've never had to skip or stop during a long-run-sunday. I felt fine as I drove to my run and the weather was chilly so I had capris and a long sleeve shirt on. I started my run and looped back to my car at about 1 mile. At  this point, I felt okay and I took off my long sleeve shirt and left it in the car and I continued on my way. I made it about another mile before I stopped to use a portable toilet (something I've never done before during a run. I felt as though I drank too much water). And then I set out again, for the third time; this time I didn't quite make it a mile before I stopped to fix my hair (my ponytail was pulling on my hair so I needed to adjust). One thing after another. As I started again for the fourth time, I was suddenly overcome with exhaustion. I tried to push those thoughts out of my head and talk myself into continuing on. And then my s...